I’m giving up, again!

scared-face-002I am giving up you guys.  I cannot take it anymore.  I will never do this again.  I hope.  There is one small,  really unhealthy habit that I keep going back to and I want to stop.  I was never going to talk about it because it is not about weight loss but it is about health and it is part of my journey.  I hate it and I want it to go away.  I am quitting my use of smokeless tobacco.  I have done it before and not been real successful.  Maybe that is because it was kept in the dark.  So today I bring it into the light.  Healing happens when we walk in the light of truth.  I am choosing to walk in that light today.  Sorry if it grosses some of you out, but I felt it important to get out.  I had just recently quit for a while but I just kept listening to the lies of why I should buy more.Quitting the chew  Here is a pic of the evil stuff.  My plan is to stop using it forever.  It so does not coincide with the rest of my life and health goals.  And plus, I have lost this weight and am looking pretty decent.  The last thing I need to do is mess my jaw and face all  up let alone dying young and leaving my wife early.  So there it is!

45 Responses to “I’m giving up, again!”

  1. 1 CJ
    January 19, 2009 at 2:40 pm

    Please give it up! I know its hard. My husband has the same habit and he’s tried many times, unsuccessfully, to stop. I think the smokeless tobacco is harder to quit than actual cigarettes. Good luck. I’m rooting for you!

    • 2 run4change
      January 19, 2009 at 2:43 pm

      THank you much CJ. I am pretty sure it is. I think the nicotime inside 1 can equals about 3 packs of cigarettes.

  2. January 19, 2009 at 2:52 pm

    You can do this! Surely, you have the will power. You lost 130 pounds; you’re an ultra marathon finisher; you’re a successful blogger 🙂 This is just an opportunity for you to improve another area of your life.

    • 4 run4change
      January 19, 2009 at 3:00 pm

      Successful blogger. Boy, now there is a compliment. HAHA 🙂 Thanks a lot. I am gonna kick its butt this time around. THanks for the encouragement.

  3. January 19, 2009 at 3:01 pm

    Congratulations on taking the first step to recovery. Admitting you have an addiction. Good for you, you own it, and definately don’t be ashamed of it!
    I was a smoker for just over 8 years of my life. I said I would quit when I moved to Canada to live with my husband as 1 pack of cigarettes costs just about $12.00. That didn’t stop me. I said I’d quit when I got my front veneers. That didn’t stop me. Finally the thought of smoking made me want to vomit. I was completely turned off from it. Not to mention I didn’t want to contribute to the chances of me getting cancer. Already runs in the family…I don’t need to add to it. On December 17, 2006 I decided I no longer wanted to be a smoker. December 17, 2008 marked 2 years as a non-smoker. I still to this day struggle with it if I’m around a group of people and drinking. This is another reason I have decided to work on giving up drinking. I’m just a real occasional social drinker but none-the less it doesn’t offer anything good.
    It doesn’t matter if it’s cigarettes or smokeless tobacco..the fact is that your addicted to the nicotine, and the habit, and it’s hard to quit no matter what.
    You obviously listed some reasons as to why you want to quit. But make sure that YOU really want to quit because YOU really want to, not because you should, or for your wife, or because it fits the picture, etc. It has to totally be you deep down that wants to.
    Your strong and I totally believe that you can do this!

  4. January 19, 2009 at 3:02 pm

    oops I meant I quit on December 17, 2006. Hard to believe that was in 2006…where did the time go. lol

  5. January 19, 2009 at 3:08 pm

    If anyone can cut it, its you. Certainly you have what it takes, just dig deep and you will succeed. Thanks for sharing and thanks for the honesty. You rock.

    • 10 run4change
      January 19, 2009 at 3:09 pm

      Thanks a lot for your words. I will succeed. Those were very encouraging words you spoke. Thanks again

  6. 11 The not-so skinny chick
    January 19, 2009 at 3:23 pm

    As with any tough change a plan will help you. You have surrounded yourself with support for fitness and weight loss, tobacco is no different. Fight it the same. With all you have already accomplished I’m sure that over time you will conquer this too. I’m glad that you are bringing it to light, for yourself and others who may also struggle.

  7. January 19, 2009 at 4:50 pm

    I seriously am so proud of all you are dealing with lately head on. You’re not getting judged here. Ok, here’s my little habit that I finally talked about on my blog. I was a thumb sucker until 5 years ago. I had sucked my thumb since birth and did it right into adulthood. I decided 5 years ago that I would stop. I started on January 1st and this year was 5 years. That was definitely a new years resolution I kept. It was hard. I put a band aid on my thumb for about 31 days and then finally when I took it off I was able to go without sucking my thumb. It was amazing. No one ever believed I could stop and I did. I tell that story not to pat myself on the back, but to tell you you can do it. Have a plan in place, take it one day at a time and you will succeed.

    Remember the Bible says,
    Do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day as enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:34

    I will be praying for this part of your journey. You can do it. You will do it because “you can do all things through Christ who gives you the strength” Philippians 4:13

  8. 15 Stephanie
    January 19, 2009 at 4:51 pm

    Thank you for having the courage to come forward. You can do it!

  9. January 19, 2009 at 5:20 pm

    When you decided to train for a marathon you gave it 100%. You did it X eleven!!!

    This addiction will take 100% effort to break it. It won’t be easy. But, I don’t think “easy” has been your choice for a while now. I have total faith that you can do this.

    • 18 run4change
      January 19, 2009 at 5:24 pm

      With encouragement like that coming in I think you’re right. Thanks a lot lindarx. I appreciate it much 🙂

  10. January 19, 2009 at 5:31 pm

    Jason besides Jesus Christ and my mom, you are my HERO!!! I’m not kidding.

    • 20 run4change
      January 19, 2009 at 5:38 pm

      Muchas gracias mommy. My “real” mommy is one of my heros too. She is absolutley the best giver and lover of people that I know. Hopefully some of it has rubbed off.

  11. January 19, 2009 at 6:45 pm

    YOU CAN DO THIS, JASON!!!!! You have already put it out in the light and with that first step, you will put it behind you. I’m looking forward to reading that post some day soon. BTW – nice pic!

    • 24 run4change
      January 19, 2009 at 7:22 pm

      Alexia, you inpsired my title to this post at first. I had it as one last thing, but then I felt bad for stealing you cool name so I changed it. Thank you for your support

  12. January 19, 2009 at 6:56 pm

    About time buddy. That stuff will kill you.

  13. 27 Vani
    January 19, 2009 at 7:30 pm

    you can do it!!! seriously. with everything you’ve accomplished, what’s one more thing? 🙂 It’s comforting in a way to hear you voice another goal — like even when you lose 130 pounds, you’re not complacent. There’s always something we can change for the better…

  14. 28 run4change
    January 19, 2009 at 7:31 pm

    You are so nice Vani. Thanks a lot.

  15. 29 myweightylossjourney
    January 20, 2009 at 2:52 am

    I’ve just started my weight loss journey, you’ve been on this journey for a while now. You’ve just started quitting your nicotine addiction, I’ve been nicotine free for 2 years. There are definite correlations there! You (and your blog) keep me motivated to loose weight, so hopefully, I (amongst others I’m sure) can help you to keep free of nicotine. You will feel better for it soon, but I still have dreams (or nightmares) where I’m smoking, and I wake up really disappointed in myself, until I realise ti was just a dream. I guess some things stick with you for a while if they’ve been part of your life for over 15 years. Good luck, but I don’t think you really need it!

  16. January 20, 2009 at 4:26 am

    That is a fantastic goal, and I know you can do it, especially now that you have brought it out in the open.

  17. 33 Angela
    January 20, 2009 at 6:53 am

    You are hilarious! I know this wasn’t meant to be funny, but I was tilting back in my chair and that photo about put me on my patute. Thanks Jason, I needed that this morning. Coming out of the closet is never easy, in whatever fashion, but it is so liberating. And it can bring about true change. Thumbs up for that.

  18. January 20, 2009 at 7:42 am

    You can do this! This time around, you have the added support of your blog community. Does chewing (sugarless, of course) gum help when you have a craving? The best way to quit a bad habit is to replace it with a healthier one. If you feel a craving coming on, get on your blog! We can distract you for awhile. 🙂

    • 36 run4change
      January 20, 2009 at 8:12 am

      I am using gum for the replacement. I will also be blogging about it to. I would love to find a ticker thingy that would keep track of the days kinda like people have for their weight loss

  19. January 20, 2009 at 8:49 am

    Eww…I really hate this stuff. Glad you are giving it up. Eww…bleh…I’m shuddering I hate it so much! 🙂

  20. 39 charleshbaker
    January 20, 2009 at 9:27 am

    Way to go! Long ago, I had a girlfriend and some friends who smoked and guess what I started smoking. Long after I broke up with her I was still smoking. In fact I was with my wife to be and had a daughter. One of the toys my daughter received for her first Christmas was a blow up turtle toy. I couldn’t blow it up. That significant emotional experience(SEE) made me quit, much like another SEE has launched me on the lifestyle change that brought us together via our WordPress blogs. I realized that if I kept on, I wouldn’t be able to run and play with this precious little girl. She’s nearly 16 now, and I’m so glad I quit. It was also pretty weird for me to be working out, running, etc and still smoking. In fact it was crazy!

    I commend you for outing yourself. You can give up the tobacco habit forever. Seek help when it seems you’ll slip up. Use the same lessons you’ve learned to combat emotional eating they will help.

  21. January 20, 2009 at 5:35 pm

    I quit smoking again in September. I had quit for a few years and started back over the summer when I was under a lot of stress. It took a little bit to quit, but I am happy to be smoke free. Besides smoking (and chewing) is not attractive. It looks way worse than any loose skin! I have no doubt in my mind that you can quit.

  22. 43 toofew
    January 20, 2009 at 11:25 pm

    Jason, you were the first person to comment on my blog and apart from that, I have really enjoyed your blog and getting to know you through your blogs. Even if it has been briefly. When it comes to addictions to substances there is will power, but there are physiological dependencies that you will no doubt watch for. Withdrawls happen with nicotine, caffeine and alcohol as much as meth and crack. (and I believe refined sugar)
    Good for you for becoming even healthier. I am not going to wish you luck, because I believe you have it in the bag. Garbage bag for the chew.

    • 44 run4change
      January 21, 2009 at 5:55 am

      THis is very true .At this time I am chewing some nicotine gum as an aid. Thanks for the heads up. So far so good. I wanted to stop at the store today and get some but just kept on driving

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