For some reason by the time I was leaving work yesterday I was tired, grumpy, and lacking strength to eat healthy. I just didn’t want to think about doing a good job with my eating and I felt like isolating myself. I was kind of tired of people and I did not want to talk about anything. To tell you the truth, I was going to go and eat a bunch of crappy food to try and make myself feel better. You know, I thought of it like a reward for feeling tired. To tell you even more truth, I was the one who put in SECRET # 26. I am happy to say that I did not do it but I was just right on the edge, just about to leave work to hurry off to the store and buy the junk food. Then I got the call that put the pressure on even more.
My wife called just before I was going to go to the store. She said that we were going to go out to eat with one of her friends and her husband. I wasn’t that nice about it on the phone unfortunately but I agreed to go because I am really trying to be a more social person. I was worried about going because of the way I was feeling. The fact that I had to hurry made it impossible to go to the store for the junk food but at the same time I had another way to comfort myself (restaurant food). On my way home I went back and forth saying, “Oh yeah, I am going to eat lots of the bread, a big steak, get a sugary coke, and some fries. Oh yeah, I probably shouldn’t do that. I will order grilled chicken and make sure I eat healthier.” I talked to myself like this all the way home and also once I got home. Finally I got in the shower and just prayed about it.
I decided that I would eat some veggies before I went so that I was not too physically hunger. I also decided that I would do my darndest to eat what I felt good about eating. So I ordered grilled salmon, steamed veggies, and a baked sweet potato. I did not eat any bread and had some coffee to liven my up while the others chowed down on the bread. Over all it went well. I only went 4 points over my daily amount which was a real victory considering how I was feeling. I took half the salmon home too. This maintenance life is possible I guess, even on very short notice when I’m feeling like tired pooo.