My journey towards health has an unavoidable cycle. I think it is a healthy cycle, but it is one that brings about panic sometimes. Like most things in life, my journey ebbs and flows from one direction to the other. The same thing happens in relationships. You get really close, then drift a bit, then get close again. It is the nature of finding balance in the different elements of my life. So the cycle is a good thing. It is a learning process. The longer I succeed on the journey, the closer to balance I get, the closer to my dream I become. Keep reading to find out more about this cycle and the fears related to it.
Here is the cycle:
- I measure, weigh, and count points/calories to perfection or close to it. I get my exercise in doses that I know will bring me to my goals. I feel good about my commitment!
- I slowly become comfortable with my success and how to work my program. Slowly but surely I add a little estimating into my measuring and counting. I feel very confident that I know what I am doing.
- Now I am relying on the estimations that I make when it comes to food. At this stage of the cycle I might not be as active or at least as obsessed with it. I feel comfortable for a time.
- I freak out because my results are not as optimal as they used to be. I feel scared that I am losing control and that I can’t do it like I used too.
- I estimate less and exercise a little more intelligently. I start feeling a little better that I am back on track.
- I go back to stage one. I feel good about my commitment!
So that is the cycle that I go through. I think it is a natural part of the learning process on how to be healthy for a person who has a tendency towards an unhealthy relationship with food. As time goes on, I can stay in stage 2 for longer periods of time as I have actually learned how to estimate better but at the same time count where I really need to. I do a little bit of both.
I try not to beat myself up to much about going through the different stages. I just try and move back to a more healthy stage in the process. I kind of peak at stage 4 and then begin practicing better habits again. This is how it tends to go for me anyway. How about you? Do you go through the cycles? If you do, are your cycles similar to these?