That’s right. The fat mind or fat guy is not gone. Even after 14 races at marathon or longer distances. Even after 2.5 years of great success. Even after learning to live life the healthy way.
THE FAT MIND/GUY IS NOT GONE!!
So damn bad too. I only wish that this A-hole would leave forever and disappear. It would be nice to not have to battle it out so often. It would be nice to REALLY WANT to make nice and healthy choices rather than feeling like I should make them. It would be a great relief to not have to listen to the fat mind ask for food to calm the negative emotions that tend to build up inside. That is all it is really, a medicine to calm my negative BS that bothers the heck out of me. Do you think a donut or candy bar is really gonna help make my woes disappear. Do you think that even one bite of anything will even alleviate one ounce of the pain of coming up short. NO, NO, NO! If hunger is not the problem then food is not the answer. I just can’t believe it sometimes though. Sometimes my first inclination and thought is to eat some sugary fattyness to make myself feel better. Heck, I even want it to make me go from happy to REALLY happy. In the end it just brings more guilt and dis-satisfaction. Food can’t do it.