More record setting: Running and eating

World Record holder for the mile: 3:43.13

World Record holder for the mile: 3:43.13

To the left is the current world record holder for the one mile distance.  Pretty amazing to go a mile in 3:43.  That is running about 16 miles per hour.  That is very fast. (This link will show you the progression of men’s and woman’s mile world records.)

Today I set my own record for the mile.  I ran a mile in 5:36.83 besting my previous record of 5:41 from only months ago.  Prior to that my PR was 6 something.  My legs turned to rubber after I finished and I still had the rest of my workout to do.  I ran 1.25 miles to the track, did my mile time trial, and then finished it off with 8X400 meters at my 5K pace (6:08).  It was a hard workout and my mental toughness was not where it normally is.  I really had to fight to keep on keeping today.  I have been going through a lot lately so mentally I am pretty damn tired.  I still did it though and I am proud of not giving up even when my lungs felt like they were on fire.  HAHAHAHAHA

Unfortunately, I had three pepperoni’s afterward.  I have been having the worst of times with my eating.  I want to do good so bad but I keep on eating junk.  I tried to draw a line in the sand like Steve said but I just haven’t been able to stay on the right side of the line.  Life is not over, the journey isn’t ending, but I have a lot of guilt and negative feelings about how I have been eating the the weight that I have gained.  I don’t like this as it is exactly the stinking thinking that I don’t want to be doing.  I don’t like.

On another note, I have been going through an intensive audit for three weeks now.  This audit is the intense scrutiny of every tiny little aspect of my job and my responsibilities there.  For 8 hours a day I am questioned, I am quizzed, I am doubted.  During the audit, I must provide scientific justification for every decision I make regarding my job.  My job is important, my job is essential, but so much of what these audit put you through is based on everything except common sense.  It is all based on the auditor covering their ass and I am trying to do the same thing while they audit me.  I argue with the auditor regarding my decisions.  Anyway, no matter what those suckers throw at me, I have the answer for them.  I have what they want.  In fact, even though the stress level is high, I am conquering.  I think today was the last day and I came out on top.  I won the battle.  Luckily, I had a nice auditor.  🙂

It is time to go to bed.  I get depressed if I don’t get at least 6 hours of sleep.  So thanks for listening.  Thanks for commenting.  Thanks for caring.  You guys are great.  Each comment I read is an uplifting event that helps me maintain.

7 Responses to “More record setting: Running and eating”

  1. 1 cecile
    October 22, 2009 at 4:28 am

    So sorry your struggling. Now that your audit is over your stress level will be less and you’ll be able to get back on track. I know how difficult an audit can be, they can make you real frustrated but knowing you, you handled it well. Your job is real lucky to have such a concientious and dedicated person at the helm. I’m very proud of you. By the way I went back to ww yesterday, back on track again, hoping I can complete the journey this time!!!!!

  2. October 22, 2009 at 5:09 am

    Congrats on breaking your PR! That is awesome! It is hard to get back on track once we stray from what has become normal for us. I have hit a speedbump too the last few weeks, but am trying one meal at a time to keep focused because I know how rewarding it is when I see results.

    Oh and just for the record…audits do suck!

  3. October 22, 2009 at 7:05 am

    Stress always effects my food choices too. Don’t beat yourself up over it. Besides, you’re still kicking butt with your running. Now that your audit is over, you can concentrate on being the best you that you can be. Congrats on breaking your own record!

  4. 4 Kathy
    October 22, 2009 at 7:08 pm

    WOW! No wonder you haven’t had the mental whatever to worry about your eating. Having to go through this with an auditor for 3 weeks is above and beyond what anybody should have to go through. I completely understand the stress and mental fatique you’re going through. No wonder you want some comfort food when you’re through with your day. But….that being said, those of us that are foodies, have to find a way to overcome these stressful situations and deal with them in better constructive ways. We look at people that are druggies, alchoholics, porn addicts, etc. and think “Why don’t they just quit what they’re doing”, or something like that. We think, “sure, they’re under stress, but they have to deal with it better”. But, I’m just every bit as bad as those other addicts, because I deal with my stressful situations with eating. Jason, you WILL get this under control. You WILL find a way to get back where you want to be. You’ve come so far, so don’t let this set-back get you down. Just keep trying one day at a time, and one of these days, it’s just gonna “click” again. I’ve always heard that maintenance is the hardest part. I’m struggling with the “getting started” part. Every day is a “Today is the day I’m gonna start, and I’m gonna lose this stupid weight” kind of day, and by 9:00 it’s all gone. Maybe we can just keep trying and helping each other through this. Hang in there. I know you’re an inspiration to me!

  5. October 23, 2009 at 3:07 am

    Don’t be too hard on the auditor — that is the department I manage at my company. 🙂 I know what you mean though. There are times my team has to ask the questions we don’t agree with because regulations demand it. In addition, we are also paid to question what is going on. I naturally trust a lot of people, but I have had to change my thinking to be one of questioning people. The good thing is that in my company I think I have been able to change most people’s thinking to understand we are all on the same side of the table.

    By the way, if you have crossed that line in the sand, just draw a new one. I know that can be a never-ending cycle, but the point is to not let what has happened in the past get you down. That can be a vicious cycle. Just do what you can to make today the best you can make it.

  6. October 23, 2009 at 3:07 am

    Oh, and by the way, congratulations!

  7. October 23, 2009 at 11:43 am

    I think the fastest I have done a mile is in 9 minutes, but I didn’t have a workout to do afterwards. I don’t know how you were able to do your mile and then still have a workout afterward!

    And yeah eating junk food after a good workout can sometimes make you feel like crap. Maybe not physically but mentally. You just feel like your effort was for nothing. What i like to eat after a workout is usually a protein shake or a yogurt. I have found that this is the best way to kill my cravings.

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