I weighed in last night. I was so afraid of going for a month now but since Monday I have had a renewed spirit. I was not scared to go at all yesterday. I was just going to take reality for what it was. I can’t change it immediately, I can’t pretend it is not real, I can’t do anything rationally except take it for what it is. So I climbed in my truck after a very tough speedwork out at the track and left for my meeting.
I walked right into the building, went to the receptionist and asked how much I had to pay. I haven’t paid since December of 2007 so I really had no idea. She was shocked at my asking because she knows me and just felt that I was not going to need to. She did not want to let me. She was in denial. I explained to her that I KNEW I WOULD HAVE TO PAY. I also explained that my previous meeting place took away my doctors goal weight of 210. They said I could not have it so that would mean I would have to weigh 198 for WW goal and I weighed 208 last time I weighed.
She changed my goal weight back to my doctors weight which was very pleasing to me. I loved it. I went to the scale with renewed confidence that I would not have to be a paying member anymore. I weighed in and had a great talk with my special leader. It was all so very encouraging. I told the whole group exactly how I had been eating and how I had been acting. This too was also freeing.
I WEIGHED IN AT 204. I LOST 4 LBS.