Totally bummed but keeping on.

Shooting very sharp pain stabbed me right in the mid-left back last night during my run.  I was kicking butt on my 6 mile speed work run but at the 3.5 mile mark I was stopped dead in my tracks.   I had to walk home.  I think it was a cramp or something.  Not an injury I don’t think.  I felt so out of shape and fat and discouraged after that.  I normally don’t have two runs that I cannot complete in the same week time frame but this week I did.   Me long run of 35 miles last Sunday was not completed nor was my full 6 miler.  This is ok in the long run of my journey but it still stings the esteem a bit.

I also had this horrible dream about the 100 miler that I will be doing.  I scared the heck out of my.  I think a nice dream about the end of the world or some evil thing chasing me would have been better.  In my dream I started out at an 8 min. pace for the first ten miles.  Got totally exhausted, fell asleep in some thatch roofed hut, got up to finish the race and collapsed at the 30 mile mark.  Woke up feeling like poooo after that.

I move on from all of this though.  Keeping things in perspective helps.  I can run 20 miles without any soreness or hardship.  Even 40 miles is not so bad anymore.  I am actually in good shape even if my feable mind can’t see it for the time being.  My eating is improving a lot.  I also discovered AGAIN that eating in my truck is VERY VERY EVIL.  HAHAHAHA  Can’t do it and be successful.  “Auto” eating is not good for me.

3 Responses to “Totally bummed but keeping on.”

  1. January 8, 2010 at 5:02 pm

    Hola! I’ve been frustrated with my training for a half marathon I’m registered to participate in next month. It seems like mentally I’m always more prepped for the longer runs, certainly, not anywhere like the 35 or 100 mi you are training to do. Still, I know what I’m about to share may seem trivial, but it’s a reality. Two days ago I had to stop 20 minutes into what was scheduled to be my 80 minute run (1 hour short)!

    At first I was very disappointed, then I started thinking about the fact I’m even training to run “another” half-marathon; especially considering I used to be obese and barely able to move a small box or stay on an eliptical for too long.

    The same applies to you! The fact that you run distances some elite runners do not even run and the others are running right by your side, is AMAZING when you look at how far you’ve come!

    Your dreams are likely stemming from your frustration and perhaps anxiety from not being where you’d like to be in your training. This time of your life seems (at least from what I gather through your writings) to be an opportunity for some self-discovery and challenging you through to what is sure to be the next level of success!

    • 2 run4change
      January 9, 2010 at 7:25 am

      THanks chica
      What you say is not trivial at all. It is all a matter of degree. your 80 minutes is the same to you as my longer training runs. To it really is all the same. i totally get your point and the best way to look at these situations is from the place that we started. so we can be reminded of how far we have come.

  2. January 9, 2010 at 12:18 pm

    De nada! Thank you for putting it into perspective like that! I know your positive attitude is still there and you will overcome this!

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