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Jan
10

Weight Watchers Weigh-In. A life of persistence.

Wow!!  That is all I have to say sometimes.  The journey of life, let alone weight loss and maintenance, can be an eventful one for sure.   So I have not been to WW for two months now.  Basically, since my situation has been going on I have felt soooo bad about going to my WW meeting for some reason.  Just didn’t want to face my leader or my fellow souls on the journey.  But……..I finally did.  I went to my damn WW meeting despite my feelings, hurt, weight gain, fear, etc.  That is what I have to do right.  I discovered tonight that a journey, which could be more important than the result, take much persistence.  I will talk more about that in a sec.

So I went to my WW meeting even though I had fear but I was warmly welcomed by all.  My wonderful leader hugged me happily, talked with me and comforted me greatly regarding what I am going through.  I talked with people.  Shared my journey again from 12 minutes of exercise three times a week to becoming an ultra-marathoner.  I admit that the praise and love and kindness felt soooooooooooooooooo good.  It was so nice to be with like minded people who feel the way I do on so many different levels.  Although they don’t know my deep inside stuff, I knew that they had  theirs inside themselves, and that was quite possible the reason they and I were there.  To be with others who love and hate food.  With others who want something better out of life, something more enjoyable.  I was a wonderfully refreshing time for me and that alone will keep me going back.  I had forgotten how good those people were over my two months leave of absence.  So what was the result of my two month journey of depression, binge eating, emotional eating, and crying.  HAHAHAHA  Despite loads of pepperoni, donuts, candy, and other junk; I only gained about .5 lbs.  The great thing is that I am still lifetime member there at WW.  I am still within my range.  WOW!  Never would have guessed that that would happen.  I was relieved be there again.

Now to the lesson learned.  I can get real down on myself, life, work, and everything really.  AND I MEAN REALLY DOWN.  But, I never gave up.  If I binged on AM/PM hamburgers and candy at night, well gosh dang it I tried like a son-of-a-gun to do good the next morning.  Then at lunch.  Then at break time.  Etc. Etc Etc.  Even though I was soooo freaking tired emotionally I still kept at my running.  I still kept at my goals.  I never let them out of my sight even for a day.  I say day because I let them out of my sight for many moments. HAHAHA  But not all day.  I still got out of bed and went to work to be a productive human being.  I still took out the garbage, talked with my mom and sisters, I have been talking more with others being more social, and never gave up.  Even when I was hating my body and feeling like crap, I kept telling myself it is not over.  It is not even a big deal.  It is just part of all of this journey that I am on in life.  Just part of it.  I didn’t have to feel guilt about it, or worthless, I just needed to remember that it was all just part of life.  Life happens you know.  You can’t control it all.  So to my word of the night: PERSISTENCE.  That is right.  Just persisting the best I could at the things that I CAN do.  I could do perfect.  I was to damn tired and hurt and feeling low.  But kept at the things that I could do for that time in my life.  I didn’t just give up because I couldn’t be perfect at WW or whatever.  So my lesson is that even though life happens, we mess up, things go wrong, and it all seems impossible to get back on track; just keep doing what I CAN do.

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8 Responses to “Weight Watchers Weigh-In. A life of persistence.”


  1. 1 CECILE
    January 13, 2010 at 11:48 pm

    BOY DO I NEED SOME OF THAT PERSISTENCE TO GET MYSELF BACK ON TRACK. i FEEL LOST!

  2. January 14, 2010 at 4:25 am

    Absolutely fantastic! I’m so proud of you for taking that step! I also congratulate you for still being within your Lifetime status. That is truly wonderful. Your persistence inspires not only yourself, but all of us out here in blogland as well!

    I know for my own journey, that giving up is never an option! Hence, why, I too, am here with you! I just posted my first intro video last night on YouTube that I think you may enjoy watching! There is a little “running” action for you to see as well! However, in the end it stays true to what I just read in your post, keep up the PERSISTENCE…YOU CAN (& WILL) DO IT!

    http://youtube.com/aweightwatcherschica

    You can also reach my YouTube page from my blog site! I hope you enjoy the video! Feel free to share it with anybody you think might need a little extra inspiration! Have a terrific Thursday, smiles!

  3. January 14, 2010 at 7:04 am

    I’m so glad you got yourself back in the game!! There’s nothing like group support to help 🙂

  4. January 14, 2010 at 8:13 am

    I’m glad you went Jason. It helps to have a stablizing and moving forward point even if you fall off track.

  5. January 14, 2010 at 9:28 am

    I think I tend to forget that my support system isn’t there just to cheer me on when I doing great, they are there to help me when I’m not doing great! I think that you had a great reminder of this. 🙂

  6. January 14, 2010 at 2:29 pm

    Congrats for going back AND for still being a lifetimer! I realized the hard way (I’m back to paying until I lose some pounds) that I HAVE to attend meetings weekly!


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