Over the last several months I have not done a whole lot of being consistant. I have had a very hard time getting my life back together enough so that I can once again stick to a “normal” schedule of daily operations. At least this is what I have thought……………………….but I have had a stroke of insight today. I have not been doing ALL BAD! So I will look on the bright side of things. I have developed and implemented a new system at my work place that will change it forever and for the better. I have followed my dreams of training for, and finally attempting to run 100 miles. I have continued to eat ok enough not to gain ALL my weight back. I have held it together in many ways but it still does not take away the fact that it has been really really hard. And the hard stuff is not over yet either. Sometimes I feel it is only getting harder. But one thing I know for sure is that I have been running through it all. It is the constant (other than God) that stands firmly in place. Well, not always firmly but I have not let go of it. I have cut back, gone hard, eased off, etc. etc. But I have not turned my back on running. I have pretty much stayed with at least two days a week of running. My come back races were 32 and 41 miles.
This tiny piece of consistancy, with which coach dean has helped tremendously, has helped me piece things together. It has helped me have a foundation to build off of again. I am back to exercising with cross-training. I am excited once again about my running goals. I am looking forward to doing more running in the very near future and Coach Dean will help me attain physically what I want to attain emotionally as a way for me to set a foundation for all that is to come. I have to start somewhere. Heck, I have already started long ago, but I have finally realized I cannot do this all at once. I cannot go at this with an all or nothing approach like I normally can. i just don’t have the mental nor emotional energy to do so. So it will go step by step but I will keep on keeping on. I will run, I will eat, I will workout, I will talk things out with people I trust, I will remember my blessings and……………………………………..things will become what I desire them to be. I have learned a lot about being patient with myself and that has been hard. But I am glad I have learned it. VERY GLAD.
My angle on weight loss 
Thank you for this post! It is so true. We are SO incredibly hard on ourselves. Trained to pick out and on all of our negatives and forget the positives!
You are doing amazing things with your life, despite the obstacles… I believe your path is meant for great things!
The biggest thing it reminded me is life is about the journey not the destination! You have made my day better by this… I have to stop thinking about.. when I am this weight, or finished with my degree or my kids are old enough to do… today.. the sun is shinning down and I am going to go out and have a great run TODAY, just the weight I am.. enjoy it, then come home, to study, read, write and remember all the blessings I have!!
Have a fabulous day Jason! (you sure are up early!)
You are right carrie, i guess that the actually destination IS the journey. But that is hard sometimes LOL. 🙂 I am so blessed to know that I have possibly made your day better
Sometimes when our life is seemingly falling apart we don’t see the good things that are still happening. I’m glad that you can see the good stuff you are still accomplishing despite your struggles. This post reminded me to look at all the good stuff I’ve been doing lately instead of the weight I’ve gained from stress.
I try really hard to see the good stuff because I am prone to looking at the bad first. So thanks for your encouragement
Congratulations on the Strolling Jim…thank goodness the race got done before the storms and glad you are safe. All the people of TN are in my prayers.
You are rebuilding your foundation one brick at a time, and when you feel like you are stuck, just remember how strong that foundation will be with each new day, with each new mile.
Have a great day Jason…you continue to inspire me.
Mendie,
One brick at a time is all we can do I guess. I usually want so bad to at least put up 10-15 at a time but I will have to settle for realism. HA!