I’m alright! You know I hear from three guys today that I am fat and out of control, it hurt me even though I played it off and laughed about it with them. The reason it hurts is that I know it is true that I let that weight come back on but this is part of my life’s journey. I am done regretting it. It happened. It happened because of my choices. It’s done. I can do nothing in the world to change what happened. NOTHING! But I can change from today on. I can make one good choice at a time. I can take one step at a time and try to enjoy this life for what it is. Not what I want it to be or what it was but what it is right now. I found myself in the shower thinking on this and realized that so much worry about the goal or the past really robs me of what I have right now. I have so much right now. Heck I have not gained all my weight back. I have not lost my home, or things, or family. I still have a job. I woke up today and listened to wonderful music, talked with wonderful people, looked directly into the sky to see a wonderful sun. I felt the breeze. I felt a lot really. Most of it was negative because I let those comments rob me of my own wonderful day. Not anymore. Life is what it is at any moment. Each moment leads to the next hopefully in a succesive movement towards where I would like to go.
So I’m alright. I’m going to go have a wonderful day now.