Author Archive for Jason



12
Oct
14

Week of recovery and the blues

About Wednesday I was feeling out of sorts, blue, and a bit overwhelmed.  Thankfully a friend reminded me that I had just run a marathon only three days prior.  Now I normally don’t forget about something like that but since I have been really focusing on a new journey I had forgotten.  It is often common when you complete a marathon or a big goal that some “bummers” set in.  Just relax…….everything is going to be ok.  Tell someone about it so that you can have an awesome friend remind you of what is really going on.

Keep on keeping on!

07
Oct
14

Back in action so it seems

I feel like I am back in action after finishing the Portland Marathon.  I am a bit heavier than normal but who cares.  I’m growing, I’m reaching, and I am becoming.  And that my friends is super exciting.  I have taken two days off completely from exercising but I am feeling good so I will get back to it tomorrow and start striving towards my next goal which is the Across The Years race in December.  That one will be a bit tougher and a little longer though, yet I still look forward to it.

Weight Watchers is still in effect too.  I have not done all I can do the last few weeks so my weight hasn’t changed much and that is about to change LOL.

Here is a great quote to remember today as you go through your activities: “SOMETIMES THE ONLY GOOD THINGS YOU WILL HEAR ABOUT YOU ARE THE THINGS YOU SO TO YOU!”  It comes from this video regarding fear by Les Brown.

04
Oct
14

#29 happens in the morning

CaptureI will be running in my 29th marathon tomorrow morning.  I think it is my fourth Portland Marathon.  My bib says “Mole Man” because I am super awesome at catching moles lol.  Well, I am not at the weight I was hoping to be at for this race but that is fine, I will get to where I want to be when I need to be at it I guess.  For now, I am going to rest up, organize my stuff for the race, get up early, and take my first step on my newest 26.2 mile journey.  No matter how many times I have done it, everyone of them is very different yet the same too.  Letcha know how it goes

30
Sep
14

The child is grown the dream is gone

I love Pink Floyd.  I was listening to Comfortably Numb today and it hit me that me, people in general, stop dreaming.  Towards the end of the song the lyrics say “The child is grown the dream is gone”.  Since I have been working deep into my first week of my MKMMA scholarship,  I have really been putting a lot of thought into my dreams, my life’s vision, and what my purpose is.  It hit me pretty hard that most people stop dreaming when they are very young.

Can you remember what you wanted to do when you were a kid?  Can you remember when you would do new things it if you messed up there was nothing to be embarrassed about?  Can you remember when you believed that things would be ok and you were not “weighed down” with all kinds of negativity and bad thinking?

Well I can.  The lyrics rang true that often times when the child is grown the dreams are gone.  What if you could have your dream of running?  What if you could have your dream of being the person you know you really want to be inside?  EVERYTHING starts with a dream, with a thought…………..Just some food for thought

29
Sep
14

The funk hits sometimes

Today I was just in a funk.  Finished off a great training week with 10 hours out there on the road.  It was tough but it felt really good to make progress in my conditioning.  Often times what happens after such a physical output is that I get bummed out the day or two after I finish it.  I don’t like that but it seems to come with the territory.  I accept it………I just wanted to spout off about it to get it out there in the open so that I don’t keep dwelling on it like it is some kind of bad thing that reflects bad on me.  Like something is wrong with me or whatever.  So I am here to say to myself that I am OK, I am doing the right things, and I am achieving my goals

27
Sep
14

When you see a “big” person out there exercising think twice

IMG_20140927_103153678Today while I was out for my 6 hour jaunt to train for my 24 hour race coming up in December, I had to chuckle to myself.  One thing that I do now when I talk about my running is I usually only give the amount of time or the distance but not both.  It automatically causes a person to judge me or themselves.  Really it is all irrelevant.  The important part is that YOU or ME is out there.  That’s what counts. Anyway, so sometimes I will get passed by a “faster” runner, orrrrrrrrr……….I will pass a “slower” runner.  I have learned over time is that things are not always as they appear.  That fast person might be running a mile as fast as they can and I am on my 5th hour out there and feeling grumpy.  Or, that person I pass might be getting past the longest they have ever gone and I am on my faster weekly run.  My point is that it’s important to remember that everyone is in their own place on the fitness journey and us looking from the outside have no idea where that is.

18
Jul
14

I am going to make it. Inspiration for a down time

Today is one of those days.  I did everything I was supposed to do and I should feel good about that but I don’t.  Sometimes it just happens that way.  When I feel like this I often will play this video to get inspired and realize that things get tough, that it’s not easy, and that really it is just a journey of persistence.    Check it out.

15
Jul
14

Step by step the weight comes off

Losing weight is a son-of-a-gun!  It takes time.  It takes effort.  It takes pain.  It takes deprivation LOL.  Well you don’t have to actually deprive yourself but there really shouldn’t be anymore “eat the whole large pizza” nights. HAHAHA.  I lost weight this week and feel pretty darn good about it so I tried to celebrate the victory and reflect.  I remembered that losing weight is both a mental and physical journey.  In both aspects all it takes is one step after another.  I remembered that it takes time and patience is essential to our success.  I realized that just doing the small things right, day after day, as boring as it can get will give you the results that you want.  Sometimes the pathway to success is not so exciting and that is ok because it is not excitement that gets the job done.  IT’S ACTION.

13
Jul
14

Keeping on your weight loss path when things get “boring”

WR50 009Inspired, excited, enthusiastic, driven, unstoppable, fearful, anxious ………..all of these things are commonly felt by people at the beginning of their weight loss journey.  Sometimes these feelings resonate strongly within us but only for a moment, sometimes they last a few months.  But what are we to do when the emotions subside and we find out it is just plain work???  Now that is a very important question to ask yourself.  Often times inspiration and motivation are not long-lasting, sustainable, or constantly with us.  It’s ok, this is normal and should be expected.  If you are experiencing a dip in your excitement about your journey (regardless of what your journey may be) you are not alone.  In the previous post I talked about having routine to get you through to the finish line but even routines/habits get boring.  Here are some simples action items that will help you when you feel that your path is old and boring:

  • Remember that it is normal to lose some excitement and motivation.  Don’t give up because you are not extremely pumped about your journey.  Even those you know who have gotten their goals have experienced similar feelings.
  • Celebrate what you have already achieved even if you perceive that you are SO far away from your ultimate goal
  • Constantly set new “baby step” goals.  It is exciting to achieve our goals and that is why it is so important to set smaller goals that you can achieve and celebrate on your way to your main goal
  • Write down your own personal reasons for having your goal in the first place.  Your reasons are your deep down gut feelings of why it is so important to you to get what you want.  Read these reasons to remind you of why you are doing what you are doing as often as possible
  •  Finally, realize that it is not excitement or inspiration that gets you to the top.  It is persistent and consistent action.
02
Jul
14

How important is routine to your weight loss success???

IMG_0016As the tress in the picture border and frame out the pathway, routines can become one of the most important pillars that will hold you up until you achieve your weight loss goal.  And again like the picture, your routines can frame your path to success.  I believe to achieve weight loss without consistent routines is very difficult.  Think about it…………you have to exercise consistently, then you have to slowly ramp up the exercise consistently, you will have to have a pretty consistently healthy diet where you eat less than you burn, and you will have to weigh consistently.  Each of these things will have a routine with it.   For example, I weigh myself once per week on Monday’s and ONLY Mondays.  That is my routine and it has a purpose (weighing more often than once per week can breed trouble and discouragement due to normal fluctuations).  I also have exercise routines that I do on a consistent basis.  I am changing these routines up now but once I get the changes made I will have developed a new routine that I will perform on a consistent basis.

Another thing that a routine can do for you is give you something to look forward to, or measure, or beat.  It gives a person a good feeling when they do something that their routine calls for.  When you are supposed to work out after work on Wednesday and then you do it, it builds up confidence in you.  Confidence is often built upon what YOU DO. This is why I think the main focus, especially in the beginning, is to develop a routine that you can consistently follow.  One that if you do it, it will be impossible not to succeed as long as you have patience.  Routine, habit, consistency…………..I guess you can call it by many names.  Just KNOW that doing the right things over and over will get you to where you need to go.  It won’t always be at the speed you want and sometimes it may be faster, but having the endurance to keep on keeping on will get you a win.

HOW DO YOU DEVELOP A ROUTINE?

  1. Write down you goal
  2. Read that goal daily
  3. Write a daily “to-do” list of things that you have to do to achieve that goal (stay within weight watchers points, calories, exercise today).
  4. Be persistent and develop patience
  5. Watch yourself achieve your goal
  6. Be thankful
30
Jun
14

Sometimes……rest and reflection

There are times, especially when you have been striving to reach a goal, that a good restful reflection is in order. This weekend I didn’t run. Rather I chose to reflect on the past 6 months efforts that I put forth to achieve some big time goals. I achieved some goals and now have to set new ones, but before I completely got out the pen and paper to set my sail towards a new direction I rested. I took time to be with my loved ones, think about the past and the future, and set apart some time to have fun. This is a big win for me to take time out to have fun and not be so driven. I highly recommend it.

27
Jun
14

5k record

Today I got out despite a lot or turmoil and discouragement in my day. I walked at lunch which is a fantastic mental therapy for me and it gives me time to escape and think. Later on in the day I had a 30 minute run where I was supposed to push myself. I am happy to set that I beat my current fitness record. It is exciting to see myself beat my own records because it is a secondary concrete way to observe changes in my fitness. If I don’t lose weight one week but I beat a record I know that I am doing what I am supposed to. Another cool thing is that when you may get discouraged it is always awesome to look at the trend in your weight or times of specific runs.

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25
Jun
14

To Run or To Walk

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A lot of people ask about whether they should be walking or running.  You know when you are bigger running feels like it is impossible especially if you have never really exercised.  A major cause for the run or walk question is that it is widely believed that running is “better” than walking.  Now don’t get me wrong, running will burn more calories per hour and it gives you the best opportunity to really ramp up your fitness but it is not the only way.  Especially for someone just starting out on their journey to lose weight.  Even though it may seem like running is the best way it can be hard to get over the mental aspect of it being so hard.  And it doesn’t ever get easy but it does get easier I think.

Here is the real deal:  The better choice is the one that will help you feel good about getting out and doing it.  If walking is something you like more than running then by all means walk.  Doing the exercise that you will do the longest is the best choice in my opinion.  When I say “do the longest” I don’t mean each bout of exercise, I mean long term success.  If you hate running but you know you can burn more calories do it………what does it matter if you end up quitting it because you hate it.  If you like to walk and keep doing it for ten years the calories that you don’t burn as compared to running are made up for by the fact that you did not quit.

You can always mix both of them together which is my favorite thing to do.  Also, if you enjoy walking try to pick up the pace.  If you can get more into a pace below 15 minute miles you will begin to burn closer to what you would running.  I believe that you have to get done to around 12 minute mile pace or lower to start burning about the same because it is not efficient to walk that fast.  I know that the race walkers at the Portland marathon will finish the race sub 9 minute mile pace.  THAT IS CRAZY.

Key things to note

  • The most important thing is consistency.  Getting out there day after day, week after week, and month after month.
  • Injury prevention is super important to keep up your morale and keep you moving more consistently
  • Do something that you like. LOL.  I know that is a hard one since most of us don’t like any exercise at the start but that is what consistency builds
  • Run or walk???  Do what you feel best about and always remember to push your limits either way.
23
Jun
14

Update on the journey

img. credit:www.tynesweb.com

img. credit:www.tynesweb.com

This is an update on my journey.  The funny thing about being on a journey, whether it be weight loss or personal growth or whatever, is that there is no end to it.  Just like the road in this picture, a persons journey is a long and eventful passing of time which makes you into the person you are.   Often times the journey takes you on a road that is up hill. LOL.

Anyway, I have kept the weight loss faith.  I have not forgotten what it takes to succeed and win some of the battles that we all have to fight.  I don’t always win but I get my share.  Since shortly after the start of 2014 I have lost significant weight, I am happy as heck with my family at home, and my journey has taken me to a place I NEVER dreamed that it would take me.  Well……….I guess I dreamed of it I just never thought it would come to reality.  The last post I wrote on the blog was in November 2011 and it was set to private because it was deeply intense and personal.  The things I wrote in that blog were things I only dreamed of, things I never thought I would experience because the things I was currently experiencing at that time were so bad that I figured I could never grow strong enough to create change in my own life.  Well, I did!!!!  Actually, I can hardly believe that I did it.  Maybe someday I will share that part of my journey with you.

On the eating and exercising front I am winning the daily battles.  The weight gained is now coming off at a good clip, my fitness level is increasing dramatically, and my mind is being refreshed with new vigor.  I never did gain all my weight back but I did gain a good portion of it.  It was hard, REALLY hard because you begin to think you are a bad person or that you are not worth what you once were.  That is bull crap.  You are worth it and you are still that same ole’ person who has desires and dreams and hopes that all things can be possible for you.  It just so happens that you are in a shell that you aren’t happy with, a shell that keeps that “good” you from coming out, a shell that diminishes the power of happiness in your life.  Sure you can still be happy and you would be better off if you COULD BE but your mind plays tricks on you.  It tricks you into believing you are LESS when you weigh more.  The sooner that you can realize this the sooner you can take the bull by the horns so you can go for it and get what you want.  Life is ahead of us, and life is really short………..I am taking the simple daily steps to get the most out of my life. 

Oh yeah, last week I also just finished my 27th marathon.  It was my slowest one, and by far the most difficult but a great victory nonetheless. 

23
Jun
14

Writing, Running, and Life Change

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The picture above is my lawn.  To me……..today……..this pic represents a fresh start that is based upon YEARS of hard work and planning.  It’s spring and summer time.  The lawn is looking its best but it is because of the work put in prior.  I know it is just a lawn but the meaning behind it is so powerful.  This lawn has taken money, huge amounts of time, hard and difficult work, plenty of planning, and a mass amount of maintenance.  I will go as far as saying that it is a good representation of life and what so many of us aspire to.  Not that everyone aspires to have a beautiful time consuming lawn, but what we do aspire to takes the same types of efforts and focus.  Weight loss is one of those things.  It takes money, huge amounts of time, hard and difficult work, plenty of planning, and a mass amount of maintenance.  It is a goal and achievement not easily won, but IT IS POSSIBLE.

I am back to this blog after a long, long time away but I have never stopped striving and working on myself to get to where I want to get.  I have gained some weight back, I…..with much gusto……..let some bad habits back in, I didn’t exercise for a long time, and I just did a lot of things that I knew would not help me to achieve my goals.  I didn’t let it all go though.

Anyways, it is good to be back.  I am not sure if anyone will still read any of it but I most certainly need it AND desire it.  Writing gives me great avenues to express myself in a healthy way which reminds me of where I want to go and who I want to be.  Hopefully over time others will get some benefit from it.

13
Oct
11

Going short-sighted

It has been my normal “MO” to chart out my goals a year at a time or so.  I would have a big goal, then a set of biggish goals to get to that BIG goal, then monthly goals to reach the biggish, then weekly to reach the monthly, and daily to reach the weekly. LOL.  This has worked in the past VERY VERY well but the way things are right now and where I am at with myself, I don’t think that old way is going to work.  I am going short-sighted.

I have decided to SOMEWHAT do away with the intensive goal setting that I had previously practiced due to my perfectionistic nature.  Of course, I still have a few BIG GOALS for the future in the back recesses of my mind but my path to these goals is going to be organized differently.  You see, I can discourage myself pretty bad when I don’t feel I am doing perfectly.  Yet I know that things don’t need to be perfect to achieve my big goals.  So……………………………..I am sticking to daily goals that will bring me to a weekly achievement basically.  I figured why the hell should I get discouraged by a so called “failure” because I perceive it as making it impossible to reach the big goals when I can be happy for successfully achieving these smaller daily/weekly goals.  And by accomplishing these daily/weekly or easier goals I know for a fact that the big goal will come but with much MUCH less pressure.

So for now I am not going to worry too much about the fear of not reaching big goals and exchange that for the happy feeling of achieving the small goals.

10
Oct
11

Chix and spice

So I ate good today and I exercised both in my yard and at the gym.  I made my lunches for the entire week so that I won’t really have any seemingly legitimate excuse to not eat healthy.  It was a rainy day today but working out in the yard felt good and I got some stuff done that I have been putting off for a long time.  Exercising at the gym seemed kinda hard today mostly because I was lifting weights a lot which I don’t normally do but hope to keep at.  My dinner was right on as far as points go and I was full from it too.  The pic of the Tabasco stuff at the top I wanted to share.  It is super-dee-duper good.  I love it.  I know that many on their healthy journey limit sodium, I am not one of those.  I love that tabasco salt and it just add the perfect kick to beef and chicken.  It makes me happy to eat healthy so why the heck wouldn’t I use it. lol. 

Aside from working at being organized for my journey, I took about an hour out of the day to truly and deeply relax and this felt great.  Something I rarely do.  And heck, I even got some good time in with my hobby too.

 

09
Oct
11

Injuries and the rest of it

It’s been a while since I posted.  I have written some posts but I am keeping those set to private.  The health journey has been a long one for a while now.  It has been pretty easy logistically since I have not really been too strict on staying at it.  Where it has been hard is emotionally and mentally.  I am used to winning.  I am used to succeeding.  Haven’t been experiencing either one for a while now but then again this could just be a matter of perception.  Perhaps if I changed my perspective I would feel that in actuality I have been winning this whole time.  I guess I will make that change right now so that I can “reframe” it in a more positive way. LOL.

The pic above is my old dog that I had to put to sleep.  He was in pain, injured in some ways, and just tired.  I picked this pic because I FELT that way for a bit.  A while back I broke my foot which as you would think hindered my running which in turn hindered my eating which in turn hindered my weight journey.  Not that this injury HAD to effect the other things but I sure allowed it too.  It took around three months for it to not ever hurt while walking or running.  My foot is good now.  Three weeks ago I hurt my Achilles and actually went to the doctors which is something that I never did for my foot.  I also injured my back doing who-knows-what.  It all hurt my running which was on a a really good path up to that point.  But hey, at least nobody put me to “sleep” like I had to do with my dog.  HA.

Things are looking up in the health department though.  I got back into an older habit of buying ALL my food for the week on sunday, planning my meals, and cooking what I can so it will be readily available for me.  I look forward to this week as I know it will be a good success.  I haven’t felt successful a whole lot regarding my health journey but it doesn’t have to stay that way to be sure.  I went out and bought some clothes today that fit my nicely and that felt good.  This alone boosted my confidence and good feeling significantly.  I have a great group of family and friends to help me along the way which is also really nice and encouraging. 

Seems like the normal post title might be “Starting out a new………” or something like that but that just isn’t the case today.  I have never stopped.  I have never given up.  The journey changes all the time.  Goals are re-assessed.  Timelines are moved forward.  Lots of things change but just because things change or things don’t go OPTIMALLY doesn’t mean that I have stopped being on my wonderful journey.

Fat guy with the "fat" mind. My inspirational before pic. I guess I AM WINNING!

09
Oct
11

Couple yard pics 3

Just another after pic showing plants growth

09
Oct
11

Couple yard pics 2

The plants have grown a lot