Today I put together the nemesis of weight watchers. The Bacon Explosion! Two pounds of pork sausage, two pounds of bacon, BBQ sauce, and BBQ spices. I am making it for our company xmas party which is tomorrow night. Here are some pics. I better save up ALOT of points for my WW eh??? I will have a great week of running next week luckily so should be no problem earning enough activity points.
There are times (I had them all week lol) that it feels hard or like you don’t want to get out and run, exercise, walk, etc. So what do you do then. How do you trick yourself into doing what you really do want to do but don’t feel like at the time. Well, I think you have to build a habit around the thing you want to do. Like get your running clothes on the same way and do things that create a routine around it. So then, even when you don’t feel like doing it, if you can START the routine your mind will kick into gear and get you through the rest of the routine/habit. So here is what I did this weekend when I didn’t want to get out there.
1. I put on my running clothes even though I kind of intended to still skip the run.
2. I put on my running shoes even though I was laying down on the bed.
3. I told myself, NUMEROUS times that I could just go out and walk. (Remember, I was supposed to run but to just go out and walk STARTS the routine ya know what I mean
4. I stepped outside to feel what the weather was like and wake the hell up
5. I put my watch on and got Ipod ready.
6. I started my walk which eventually turned into a run because I was now IN my routine and it all felt pretty “right”.
That’s all folks
I feel like I am back in action after finishing the Portland Marathon. I am a bit heavier than normal but who cares. I’m growing, I’m reaching, and I am becoming. And that my friends is super exciting. I have taken two days off completely from exercising but I am feeling good so I will get back to it tomorrow and start striving towards my next goal which is the Across The Years race in December. That one will be a bit tougher and a little longer though, yet I still look forward to it.
Weight Watchers is still in effect too. I have not done all I can do the last few weeks so my weight hasn’t changed much and that is about to change LOL.
Here is a great quote to remember today as you go through your activities: “SOMETIMES THE ONLY GOOD THINGS YOU WILL HEAR ABOUT YOU ARE THE THINGS YOU SO TO YOU!” It comes from this video regarding fear by Les Brown.
Losing weight is a son-of-a-gun! It takes time. It takes effort. It takes pain. It takes deprivation LOL. Well you don’t have to actually deprive yourself but there really shouldn’t be anymore “eat the whole large pizza” nights. HAHAHA. I lost weight this week and feel pretty darn good about it so I tried to celebrate the victory and reflect. I remembered that losing weight is both a mental and physical journey. In both aspects all it takes is one step after another. I remembered that it takes time and patience is essential to our success. I realized that just doing the small things right, day after day, as boring as it can get will give you the results that you want. Sometimes the pathway to success is not so exciting and that is ok because it is not excitement that gets the job done. IT’S ACTION.
As the tress in the picture border and frame out the pathway, routines can become one of the most important pillars that will hold you up until you achieve your weight loss goal. And again like the picture, your routines can frame your path to success. I believe to achieve weight loss without consistent routines is very difficult. Think about it…………you have to exercise consistently, then you have to slowly ramp up the exercise consistently, you will have to have a pretty consistently healthy diet where you eat less than you burn, and you will have to weigh consistently. Each of these things will have a routine with it. For example, I weigh myself once per week on Monday’s and ONLY Mondays. That is my routine and it has a purpose (weighing more often than once per week can breed trouble and discouragement due to normal fluctuations). I also have exercise routines that I do on a consistent basis. I am changing these routines up now but once I get the changes made I will have developed a new routine that I will perform on a consistent basis.
Another thing that a routine can do for you is give you something to look forward to, or measure, or beat. It gives a person a good feeling when they do something that their routine calls for. When you are supposed to work out after work on Wednesday and then you do it, it builds up confidence in you. Confidence is often built upon what YOU DO. This is why I think the main focus, especially in the beginning, is to develop a routine that you can consistently follow. One that if you do it, it will be impossible not to succeed as long as you have patience. Routine, habit, consistency…………..I guess you can call it by many names. Just KNOW that doing the right things over and over will get you to where you need to go. It won’t always be at the speed you want and sometimes it may be faster, but having the endurance to keep on keeping on will get you a win.
HOW DO YOU DEVELOP A ROUTINE?
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This is an update on my journey. The funny thing about being on a journey, whether it be weight loss or personal growth or whatever, is that there is no end to it. Just like the road in this picture, a persons journey is a long and eventful passing of time which makes you into the person you are. Often times the journey takes you on a road that is up hill. LOL.
Anyway, I have kept the weight loss faith. I have not forgotten what it takes to succeed and win some of the battles that we all have to fight. I don’t always win but I get my share. Since shortly after the start of 2014 I have lost significant weight, I am happy as heck with my family at home, and my journey has taken me to a place I NEVER dreamed that it would take me. Well……….I guess I dreamed of it I just never thought it would come to reality. The last post I wrote on the blog was in November 2011 and it was set to private because it was deeply intense and personal. The things I wrote in that blog were things I only dreamed of, things I never thought I would experience because the things I was currently experiencing at that time were so bad that I figured I could never grow strong enough to create change in my own life. Well, I did!!!! Actually, I can hardly believe that I did it. Maybe someday I will share that part of my journey with you.
On the eating and exercising front I am winning the daily battles. The weight gained is now coming off at a good clip, my fitness level is increasing dramatically, and my mind is being refreshed with new vigor. I never did gain all my weight back but I did gain a good portion of it. It was hard, REALLY hard because you begin to think you are a bad person or that you are not worth what you once were. That is bull crap. You are worth it and you are still that same ole’ person who has desires and dreams and hopes that all things can be possible for you. It just so happens that you are in a shell that you aren’t happy with, a shell that keeps that “good” you from coming out, a shell that diminishes the power of happiness in your life. Sure you can still be happy and you would be better off if you COULD BE but your mind plays tricks on you. It tricks you into believing you are LESS when you weigh more. The sooner that you can realize this the sooner you can take the bull by the horns so you can go for it and get what you want. Life is ahead of us, and life is really short………..I am taking the simple daily steps to get the most out of my life.
Oh yeah, last week I also just finished my 27th marathon. It was my slowest one, and by far the most difficult but a great victory nonetheless.
I ate 12 mini reeses peanut butter cups today. Yup that’s right…………..12! Boy were they good too but they didn’t really comply with my ideal for weight watchers. It didn’t turn out to bad though as usual. I have been counting my points pretty dang good for three weeks now and I have experienced many “mess ups” during that time too. Anyway, today I ate that candy like a mad man but I counted it. It was 15 points all together and I had 17 left for the day. Good thing I ate it towards the end of the day because getting through a full day on 2 points left would be hard.
Any evil that the candy presented is that I ate it very shortly before I went out for my run. So after two miles of a nice hard run I hit the “REESES WALL”!!!!!!!!!!!! It hit my hard but I kept on. Slower, but I kept on.
And the most amazing thing that happened was that I told my girlfriend that I had eaten the candy and low and behold when I got home I had a perfect 2 point dinner waiting for me. I am so thankful for her and it was just a huge blessing for me to have that done for me.
And about the loose coat…………………the candy almost got me down but my loose coat got me up. Me two favorite running coats don’t fit me right now at all so I have to use a waterproof golfing jacket for my runs. It works well but that too is pretty snug. Today was the first time I have noticed that it was looser on me than it was three weeks ago. YAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I ended up with a good week. I lost weight and did all my runs that I had scheduled. That was a big boost for me and it brightened up my day. So my WW week starts over today and I get a whole new week to lose and run again. I did a long run yesterday. It was kind of hard to get out there because it was cold and wet AGAIN but I did anyway. I procrastinated a bit but still got out there. It felt good. I had some rough patches and all yet the run was surprisingly smooth without problems. I pretty much double my last long run which is pretty extreme and risky but I know how to read my body and read my body I did. I am not really sore today yet so I think it was all good.
I ate good…………………I ran good………………………….I didn’t want to at all…………………but I did.
victory!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So yesterday I had a scare at work that basically through me (somewhat unknowingly) into myemotional eating persona. LOL. It was stressful that’s for sure and the minute somebody asked me if I wanted some fast food I hoped right on that band wagon without a thought. Then I felt guilty about it and ate a bunch of candy. All in all I ate 91 WW points for the day. It was a true blow up but I stopped it after the candy since I was actually pretty dang full of the yummy fatties. I wasn’t going to count any of those points but today I decided it is what it is and I should count it. I turned out that it was not such a horrible blow up after all. Sure I emotionally ate which I don’t like to get into when I can help it but even after counting all 91 points I still have 13 weekly points left. That was a huge relief and I could have enjoyed many more hours of “NON-GUILT” if I would have just counted it right away and known the truth. So it was a good lesson RELEARNED!!! If you blow it, just hold on, stop, and count the calories/points. It is usually not as bad as you think it is. It is the guilt that you let fester that kills you because you hop right back into that bad healthy cycle.
Today was a much better day for eating. I also ran. Yesterday I didn’t run because of the work emergency and the mass amount of food made me to full to run. But I was back at it today. It was a drizzling dark night tonight with heavy heavy fog. The run was tough, I ran faster than I normally do and I just wasn’t in to it. I didn’t enjoy it that much but sure was happy that I did it. Here are a couple of pics from the run.
this is what my run looked like to me. it was actually pretty beautiful and neat
image from studentbranding.com
I had a terrific week and a few days ago I wrote a lot about the confidence I had in running long distance training or race runs. As I ran my 6 mile run today I thought and thought and thought about this but I didn’t know I was until I finished. I said to myself mid-way that I should go for ten miles because I knew I could do it and it would increase my long run distance build-up faster. I held back though. I thought to myself that I am 100% sure that even right now I could push through and battle out a marathon finish. I mean heck, when there is so much on the line (a finishers shirt!!! 🙂 ) you always finish. I know I could. Would it be really fun? Would it be “relaxing” and benificial? Would it foster good thoughts or bad ones? Then it struck me about training for me personally. My body responds well to pretty much any kind of training I think. I recover well. I can go a long ass ways. But it REALLY struck my that a conservative build-up (like the one I did when I first started running) did more for creating an ATMOSPHERE OF CONFIDENCE within my own mind than it did for creating a super fit person. Of course the super fit goes along with the running but the multiple ultras and marathons, the way I explained to myself in my writing how I thought and felt going into a race, the sense of almost scoffing at a distance (with respect though) because I had done the work in the trenches far before hand. It struck me that the ATMOSPHERE OF CONFIDENCE in my own mind was what I need to foster more than anything. THAT is what creates IN ME the ability to stick with it, the ability to enjoy it, the ability to endure much longer distances. In other words, I held back. I cherished the “small” 6 mile victory. I saw in my minds eye the red line on my confidence meter bump up because I finished my 6 miles in complete comfort and with a sigh of satisfaction followed by a smile. There is plenty of time to build-up to 20, 30, 40 mile long runs. I was reminded of the times where I had a 30 mile long run and I felt this exact same way when I finished: in comfort and with a smile. Not sore for days, happy I did it, confident I could do it again.
Today I somehow made my way through the mass tangle of the internet into reading a list of the most expensive cars in the world. It was pretty amazing that a $150,000.00 car didn’t even come close to making the list. Below is a picture of one the most expensive cars in the world coming in at around $750,000.00 which oddly enough is about half the price of the most expensive cars.
A SSC Ultimate Aero-V (photo from wix.com)
This got me to thinking about the people who buy these. To them, buying the 150 grand car is nothing and they could scoff at it. And then to the person owning the 150 grand car would easily be able to get a 75 grand car. And then a person from 75 to 50, and then 50, to 20, and so on all the way down to the person who thinks it is the best thing ever to have a 1985 oldmobile in good condition for $1500.00. It is all a matter of perception.
I think weight loss is the same way. A person who has lost 500 lbs may think it is no big deal to have to lose 200 and so on. Likewise, you can look at the “blow ups” on your journey in particular ways. A person who gained all their weight back would wish they only gained half, and a person gaining half would wish for only a quarter. And for me, TODAY, I realized that going way over my points could be looked at like a “blow up” but it really isn’t. I still have SOME weekly points left. If I had looked at going so far over as a huge failure I may have just said “EFF” it and started again on monday like we all have done a million times. Today I chose to be excited that I was still on plan even while going over so much. I chose to stay positive about it and realize it could have been much more “EXPENSIVE” points wise than it really was.
I guess I was just reminded that we are all on a journey and no matter what mark we want to get to or what obstacles we face, we are all just people and our goals and hard times are important and real to us.
It’s funny when I think of it, but bad eating doesn’t just happen when you are bummed out or pissed or some other negative emotion. It happens when you are happy as heck too. Food and eating it are closely connected to our emotions. We use it for birthdays, holidays, and celebrations of all types. We use it at funerals, work meetings, and vacations. It is all around us during all our feelings good and bad. It is possible to stay on your plan though during it all. Sometimes its hard, sometimes its not, but it is ALWAYS possible. Today I made it possible with some simple choices and the stuff I ate that was not optimal……………well…………..I just counted it. Ended the day with one point left actually and that is good news. LOL! Even on a day where I felt the whole range of emotions and had lots of opportunites to not count or just blow it all, I hung on. You can too.
I also got my run in tonight. It was a dry and cold night. I started the run just as the sun was setting so I took a pic through some awesome old oak trees. Check it out and thanks for stopping by to read.
I had a sucky day at work emotionally. Got pretty hurt, then offended, then it just turned to being pissed off. Still a bit pissed off really but my run helped a ton and then coming home to play some “Call of Duty” on the XBOX with the family cherred me up also.
So it was a victorious day really because as easy as I could have eaten emotionally I did not medicate in that fashion. I just tried to relax and laugh with the people at work that are more enjoyable. I went over my points a bit but it was nothing to worry about since I have my 49 extra points per week. I also gained 9 points running tonight so that helped. I had a great run. It was hard on the legs a bit but it was brisk and nice. Here are two pics from the run. It was neat because I took a pic of a group of cattle and when they saw me they all run up to the fence to get close because they were curious.
A new year is ahead of us. This year has been a very wild ride for me personally. I have not been posting here at all for sometime for various reasons but have not stopped writing because writing is something that helps me learn about myself, my ways, and my weight loss journey. I hope that I have not lost all my friends here. I am going to start posting regularly again and I am pretty darn excited about it. Please feel free to join in on my adventures for 2011.
For starters, I have gained about 50 lbs. Yeah that is a lot but what can I do about it now except move forward into a new and exciting dawn.
This was during my run tonight.
Here I am just days ago during my family christmas
Running
Part of the weight gain came about because of a serious burn out on running that was largely due to personal life stuff that I described on the blog earlier this year. I tried hard to hold on to all the running I was doing but I just couldn’t, not with the mental stress and life changes. Plus, I was working really hard on balance. I think I went to far with it though………….LOL! So I never stopped running but I cut way back and am currently on my way back to running more and getting fit. Come along with me as I progress again in my fitness, endurance, and running. I feel like I am practically starting all over with running but I am far from that I think. Still, way out of shape in my opinion and the extra wait is not fun to run around with.
Weight Watchers
I am, as you may have guessed, doing weight watchers for the “healthy eating” portion of my journey. I get lots of points on this new POINTS PLUS plan. Seems pretty well. At the current time I am not going to meetings but doing it online. I am having good success with it so far and plan to continue that for sure. With the exception of xmas day I am eating pretty good and counting EVERYTHING. I know what to do, I am not making excuses, and I will succeed. Soon enough I will look like this again. LOL
Stay tuned to the blog to follow my journey-a-fresh. I am excited and I hope that my posts can help you on your own journey with real life inspiration. IT’S GOOD TO BE BACK. I AM COMING BACK TO MOVE FORWARD!!!
Over the last several months I have not done a whole lot of being consistant. I have had a very hard time getting my life back together enough so that I can once again stick to a “normal” schedule of daily operations. At least this is what I have thought……………………….but I have had a stroke of insight today. I have not been doing ALL BAD! So I will look on the bright side of things. I have developed and implemented a new system at my work place that will change it forever and for the better. I have followed my dreams of training for, and finally attempting to run 100 miles. I have continued to eat ok enough not to gain ALL my weight back. I have held it together in many ways but it still does not take away the fact that it has been really really hard. And the hard stuff is not over yet either. Sometimes I feel it is only getting harder. But one thing I know for sure is that I have been running through it all. It is the constant (other than God) that stands firmly in place. Well, not always firmly but I have not let go of it. I have cut back, gone hard, eased off, etc. etc. But I have not turned my back on running. I have pretty much stayed with at least two days a week of running. My come back races were 32 and 41 miles.
This tiny piece of consistancy, with which coach dean has helped tremendously, has helped me piece things together. It has helped me have a foundation to build off of again. I am back to exercising with cross-training. I am excited once again about my running goals. I am looking forward to doing more running in the very near future and Coach Dean will help me attain physically what I want to attain emotionally as a way for me to set a foundation for all that is to come. I have to start somewhere. Heck, I have already started long ago, but I have finally realized I cannot do this all at once. I cannot go at this with an all or nothing approach like I normally can. i just don’t have the mental nor emotional energy to do so. So it will go step by step but I will keep on keeping on. I will run, I will eat, I will workout, I will talk things out with people I trust, I will remember my blessings and……………………………………..things will become what I desire them to be. I have learned a lot about being patient with myself and that has been hard. But I am glad I have learned it. VERY GLAD.
I have fallen many times to the kind and gentle calling of the pepperoni. Even at 4:30 in the morning.
As you all know I love donuts and kept away from them for about 2 years. Now they have weasled their way back into my life. Here they are at my favorite morning coffe stop.
These pics show you my morning view of the two most tempting items in the entire Circle K store. I have a deep deep love-hate relationship with these two things. They are so tasty but really not that tasty. They are filling but don’t satisfy. Etc. Etc. Etc. I think I just buy ’em, eat ’em, regret ’em in a mindless way. Which is often the way I and others eat junk food. We all know they don’t make us feel good emotionally or physically but we still think they will make us happy before we scarf them down.
Anyway, I figured I would take pics of them instead of eating them today so I got my “one step”, “one choice” victory today. So far so good. I will keep on keeping on with this. Happy I did not do it. Funny thing is, these are the two things I thought of first thing when I woke up today. “MMMMMMMMMMMMM. What can I get at circle K???” It is sick I know but it is authentic. You always get authentic with me.
Two temptations for the day conquered.
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It can happen to anyone! Falling into old habits even after losing and keeping 130 lbs off. In fact, it is pretty easy to fall back into the old ways. Why is this?? Well, the old ways are the old ways for a reason and they are old because I did them for so long. Truth be told, the old ways work for what they are used for. Oh yeah, you heard me. THere is no denying that eating junk food makes me feel better at the moment I want to feel better. There is no denying that it tastes wonderful like a party in my mouth. I just want to shed the false belief that using food for comfort and security does not work. It does work and if it did not work we would never use food to comfort ourselves. However, there is a downside as there always is for self-medicating with potentially harmful stuff whether it be food, drugs, alcohol, sex, etc. It brings guilt and shame and weight gain and bodily harm.
So at the practical and reality based advice of another great blogger on the journey, I took a step back to reassess my situation and take a reality check. I took a step back to way the costs and rewards of my actions. As you know I have been on the wayward side of WW for a bit. I am still right here at my WW goal weight but things have been getting increasingly unhealthy for me both mentally and physically. Steve’s words yesterday hit me just how I needed it and brought about a major lifting of the veil over my eyes. Now that he helped me see much more clearly, I am taking my reality check here on the blog.
What is my unhealthy eating doing for me?
Well, like I said, it is making me feel better about whatever I am feeling bad about for the moment. This is true. It is also making me feel worse in the long run and causing a great crop of negative thinking to sprout up. Waying this cost is hard for me because I like the immediate benifit of feeling better and don’t particularly like the delayed gratification that denying myself the junk brings. BUT, after long thought focused on Steve’s comment, the delayed gratification FAR OUT WEIGHS any other possible benifit that junk food can give. So for today I feel strong and healthy and resolved with new passion for my health goals.
How is my fear of failure molding my situation?
I am scared to gain it all back. Unfortunately, the way my little mind works is that when I fear failure I tend not to try as to make sure I don’t fail. Now taking a step back on this one shows that this is crazy because it is self-fulfilling. I am scared to fail so I fail on purpose and do the exact thing I am afraid of. HAHAHAHA No more of this. The reality in this is that I can’t fail if I just continue to do what I know how to do as far as healthy living goes. It is a no-brainer really. I know what to do and that is to keep my eyes on the prize, don’t let go of it, and then make nice little decisions throughout everyday to ensure a victory. This is not easy at all because the fear is still there but the fear is not as powerful as the full life that can be lived in health. Self-sabotage many call it.
My addictive side?????
My addictive side grabs hold of that which makes me feel better. This side of me will barely let go of the medicine. So when I eat two candy bars with wonderful peanut butter and sugar inside, I feel better for the moment, then my addictive side says, “Oh hell yeah that felt good. What is wrong with wonderfulness. Lets keep doing this.” Contrary to much popular advice that I recieve here and away, small dabbles in such wonderfulness are not a livable scenario for me. I am often told it is MORE of a lifestyle when I allow this stuff into my life as it is less rigid but I just can’t live that way. I know myself and taking this reality check helps me to realize that abstinence is the best way to go for several foods in this world.
Negative thinking?
I can get seriously deep into some negative thinking about myself and my journey. So negative in fact that I can completely forget a good thing that I just accomplished. This is crazy but it is a reality so why should I deny myself the knowledge of the truth or the opportunity to talk about it. I can pick out one negative thing out of a sea of positive. It can be a beautiful day out but I will see a cloud the size of a man’s hand 100 miles away. HAHAHAHA I am going to work on this. WW is not really that hard and it is certainly not impossible. What is hard is staying on track while I am off track. The contrary actions. The lying to myself that I am doing it when I am not doing it. What the hell! If I am not doing it I am just going to say to myself I am not doing it and then get back on track.
On my way to work this morning one of my favorite Christian songs from Kutless came on my Ipod. I wanted to share some of the lyrics with all of you because I have always felt that these lyrics were so powerful. Then I will talk about how they relate to life for my and my weight loss journey.
As I said at the top of this post, these lyrics are very powerful to me. They are not ony relevant for my weight loss journey but for life in general. In fact, it seems that “your perspective” is really all that matters some times. Many times I get really down and blue. During these times I focus on the negatives and fail to even basically believe that any of the positives exist at all. This crushes me for the short period that I am like this. This perspective causes bad food choices, binges, junk food love, sneak eating, negative talk about my body, self-perpectuating cycles of eat/guilt/eat/guilt.
I am in this negative perspective paradigm right now. But what is the true perspective? For all of us, when we feel so down about the journey; WHAT IS THE TRUE PERSPECTIVE? HOW DO WE CHANGE OUR PERSPECTIVE? I think that changing perspectives is a choice albeit a very difficult one. I also think that the more time that you spend in one the harder it is to change to the other. Take my body image for example. I looked at a larger and more obese body for sooooo many years that even though that image is from the past now, it is like a took a still photo of it and I still see it in my persepctive in the mirror at times. It is not the true perspective though and I am slowly (very slowly) coming to terms with the real picture now.
I want to share my present view point and then share the “actual” one.
PRESENT PERSPECTIVE
POSITIVE PERSPECTIVE
It is so hard for me to look at the positive sometimes especially when I am feeling low and don’t want to put the effort into climbing out of the black hole. But the good is ALWAYS there, it is ALWAYS real, it is ALWAYS there for the taking if I can just remember it. If I can just be thankful and grateful for what I have and for what has happened along this journey.
I am not doing well on weight watchers. Nobody turned on the “difficult” switch when I wasn’t looking. The program is the same. I am still an endurance athlete and “fit as a fiddle” (as Robfitness says). I will ask for God’s help to change my view of what is going on. Change my view on how strong I am with Him. To change my view on what is still and always has been possible.
THIS IS YOUR LIFE!!! ARE YOU WHO YOU WANT TO BE?
As most of you know I was a little down in my mood yesterday. I was worried that it would throw me off of my good string of WW days and kill the positive momentum that I was having. Well, I did not do perfect but I think I still have a good chance of losing at the next WW weigh-in. Here is everything I put into my mouth yesterday from morning until night.
Coffee
Cottage cheese
2 WW frozen dinners
Banana
Nectarine
Alternative bagel
WW cream cheese
Turkey
Popcorn
Fruit cup
Oatmeal Carrots
Hot dog
3 Tootsie pops (bad choice)
12 ounces of LEAN tenderloin (should have had less)
Veggies
2 hot dog buns
1 herbalife shake
All of this food added up to 51 points for the entire day. I am not too entirely happy about the amount of points but it could have been FAR worse. I dipped into my 35 weeklies and that is just fine. So far since my weigh-in I have eaten
All my daily points
16 of my weekly flex points
I have earned 16 activity points
I plan to eat all of my weekly flex points and leave most of my activity points alone. I will get a lot of AP’s this weekend as I will be running 46 miles. This should give me around 50 AP’s. I will eat some but certainly not most of them. I would like to have around 30 AP’s left by next Wednesday’s weigh-in so that I can have at least one pounds worth of calorie deficit.
I am having serious doubts that I can lose the 15 pounds that I want to. I don’t know why the switch in my mind got tripped and now I think it is hard to lose. I have always thought it was hard to maintain but have also felt that losing was easy. I hope all goes as planned. I may not weigh-in on Wednesday since it will be after a marathon but I will definitely go to the meeting.
My angle on weight loss 