I had a terrific week and a few days ago I wrote a lot about the confidence I had in running long distance training or race runs. As I ran my 6 mile run today I thought and thought and thought about this but I didn’t know I was until I finished. I said to myself mid-way that I should go for ten miles because I knew I could do it and it would increase my long run distance build-up faster. I held back though. I thought to myself that I am 100% sure that even right now I could push through and battle out a marathon finish. I mean heck, when there is so much on the line (a finishers shirt!!! 🙂 ) you always finish. I know I could. Would it be really fun? Would it be “relaxing” and benificial? Would it foster good thoughts or bad ones? Then it struck me about training for me personally. My body responds well to pretty much any kind of training I think. I recover well. I can go a long ass ways. But it REALLY struck my that a conservative build-up (like the one I did when I first started running) did more for creating an ATMOSPHERE OF CONFIDENCE within my own mind than it did for creating a super fit person. Of course the super fit goes along with the running but the multiple ultras and marathons, the way I explained to myself in my writing how I thought and felt going into a race, the sense of almost scoffing at a distance (with respect though) because I had done the work in the trenches far before hand. It struck me that the ATMOSPHERE OF CONFIDENCE in my own mind was what I need to foster more than anything. THAT is what creates IN ME the ability to stick with it, the ability to enjoy it, the ability to endure much longer distances. In other words, I held back. I cherished the “small” 6 mile victory. I saw in my minds eye the red line on my confidence meter bump up because I finished my 6 miles in complete comfort and with a sigh of satisfaction followed by a smile. There is plenty of time to build-up to 20, 30, 40 mile long runs. I was reminded of the times where I had a 30 mile long run and I felt this exact same way when I finished: in comfort and with a smile. Not sore for days, happy I did it, confident I could do it again.
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A new year is ahead of us. This year has been a very wild ride for me personally. I have not been posting here at all for sometime for various reasons but have not stopped writing because writing is something that helps me learn about myself, my ways, and my weight loss journey. I hope that I have not lost all my friends here. I am going to start posting regularly again and I am pretty darn excited about it. Please feel free to join in on my adventures for 2011.
For starters, I have gained about 50 lbs. Yeah that is a lot but what can I do about it now except move forward into a new and exciting dawn.
Part of the weight gain came about because of a serious burn out on running that was largely due to personal life stuff that I described on the blog earlier this year. I tried hard to hold on to all the running I was doing but I just couldn’t, not with the mental stress and life changes. Plus, I was working really hard on balance. I think I went to far with it though………….LOL! So I never stopped running but I cut way back and am currently on my way back to running more and getting fit. Come along with me as I progress again in my fitness, endurance, and running. I feel like I am practically starting all over with running but I am far from that I think. Still, way out of shape in my opinion and the extra wait is not fun to run around with.
I am, as you may have guessed, doing weight watchers for the “healthy eating” portion of my journey. I get lots of points on this new POINTS PLUS plan. Seems pretty well. At the current time I am not going to meetings but doing it online. I am having good success with it so far and plan to continue that for sure. With the exception of xmas day I am eating pretty good and counting EVERYTHING. I know what to do, I am not making excuses, and I will succeed. Soon enough I will look like this again. LOL
Stay tuned to the blog to follow my journey-a-fresh. I am excited and I hope that my posts can help you on your own journey with real life inspiration. IT’S GOOD TO BE BACK. I AM COMING BACK TO MOVE FORWARD!!!
I plan to be taking more pics of my runs. I got a new camera for Christmas and want to put it to good use for the blog. I am sure some will be good and some not so good. At the moment I am doing walking, walk/jog’s, personal training three times a week, and of course building up my long run. I feel pretty bad about not being able to run as long as I used to but I am not going to let that stop me. I ran 18 miles six weeks ago but went on vacation to hawaii and did not exercise at all. So 18 miles is out of the picture for now and I don’t really care much. I am just going to start slow and move forward in small steps just like I did when I could only run one mile. I will keep the blog updated on my running and especially with any marathons I do. I have done about 26 or so marathons. I plan to get to 30 in 2011. Here are the pics from tonights run. It was a cold and rainy time with flooded streets. It was exhilarating really. Went out for 30 minutes and burned around 290 calories.
Oh boy am I tired today. I have been staying up pretty late but it has been well worth it. So I am happy with it. Lots of stuff has been happening of late and I really like it. I hope to keep experiencing more and more of it. On another note, I am totally seeing visible changes in my body when I look in the mirror. Not huge ones but they are apparent so I feel good about it. I am getting leaner and it seems to be working its way down from face to shoulders to arms but not to the stomach yet.HAHHAHAHA. That will come in time. The resistance training is now cut back to two days a week becasue I just can’t do legs the way the trainer wants to and still keep my paces during my running since my legs are so tired. Running is my first priority but I really like what the training is doing for me. My eating is also doing well. It’s not perfect and it probably never will be and I don’t even care if it is. I have much more mercy on myself now.
Today I have a hard track workout. It is supposed to be stormy, windy, and raining. Fun huh!!! I will be doing 20X400 meter repeats at my 5k pace. I may not hit all the reps at that pace but will work my booty off to get it done. These are always really hard workouts for me yet at the end I feel so good that I accomplished something hard. Doesn’t it feel good when we accomplish something hard or difficult. When I am done I will crumple into my truck seat and drive home feel exhausted yet exuberant about the achievement. I will probably tell my friend and coach soon after that about the victory. The cool this is, is that they will probably ask me how it went and to me that is special because someone cares enough to ask. Knowing this, I also try to ask about what concerns the people I love and care for. What they care about concerns me and what hurts them builds compassion in me. Anyway, things are going well. Keep on fighting the good fight of health guys. It is so worth it. So so worth it. No need to give up, you CAN get to your place.
Since I am working out using resistance training, I am hoping that it will make a difference in my journey to lose the weight I have gained. So far I have not experienced much of a difference but I have not been eating that great either. Eating is more than 60%+ of the battle if you ask me. I mean heck, you can lose the weight without exercising if you have too. I want to retain and even gain some muscle but also want to be as light as I can for the running. I don’t really want the concentration camp look but I would like to make my running as easy and as effecient as possible. So all in all I am hoping to shred the fat off my body, get down to a pretty low body fat %, and build up my running speed and endurance. I think that this is all feasable but I am having a hard time being patient. I think the fact that I know what it is like to be where I want to be makes it hard to except the fact that I am where I don’t want to be. But I will make it to where I am going. I will keep on keeping on.
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Over the last several months I have not done a whole lot of being consistant. I have had a very hard time getting my life back together enough so that I can once again stick to a “normal” schedule of daily operations. At least this is what I have thought……………………….but I have had a stroke of insight today. I have not been doing ALL BAD! So I will look on the bright side of things. I have developed and implemented a new system at my work place that will change it forever and for the better. I have followed my dreams of training for, and finally attempting to run 100 miles. I have continued to eat ok enough not to gain ALL my weight back. I have held it together in many ways but it still does not take away the fact that it has been really really hard. And the hard stuff is not over yet either. Sometimes I feel it is only getting harder. But one thing I know for sure is that I have been running through it all. It is the constant (other than God) that stands firmly in place. Well, not always firmly but I have not let go of it. I have cut back, gone hard, eased off, etc. etc. But I have not turned my back on running. I have pretty much stayed with at least two days a week of running. My come back races were 32 and 41 miles.
This tiny piece of consistancy, with which coach dean has helped tremendously, has helped me piece things together. It has helped me have a foundation to build off of again. I am back to exercising with cross-training. I am excited once again about my running goals. I am looking forward to doing more running in the very near future and Coach Dean will help me attain physically what I want to attain emotionally as a way for me to set a foundation for all that is to come. I have to start somewhere. Heck, I have already started long ago, but I have finally realized I cannot do this all at once. I cannot go at this with an all or nothing approach like I normally can. i just don’t have the mental nor emotional energy to do so. So it will go step by step but I will keep on keeping on. I will run, I will eat, I will workout, I will talk things out with people I trust, I will remember my blessings and……………………………………..things will become what I desire them to be. I have learned a lot about being patient with myself and that has been hard. But I am glad I have learned it. VERY GLAD.
Hello everyone. I have decided, for the benefit of my own health to come out from being a blog hermit. I have experienced a lot since the last time I wrote to you all. My life has changed drastically, my heart is soft again, I have opened up myself to other around me, and I HAVE EATEN A VAST AMOUNT OF FOOD. HAHAHAHA. I am not complaining though. For today I show myself mercy and I don’t do that too often. At this time it is needed however, so I will give myself a break.
- I am current 8 lbs over my WW lifetime goal. Yup, that is right, I actually had to pay the last time I went and that was the first time in around 2 years.
- I am having a hard time with recovery in my running lately.
- I have stood up for myself and been authentic more in the last three months than I ever was in my previous 33 years of life.
- My heart has changed drastically and I am excited to move on in my life to experience even more love and growth than ever before.
- I am back to WW and starting out on a new path. I will do well for sure.
I have received so many emails from all of you who care. I appreciate it more than you would ever dream. I did not return any of them for the most part but I did take each and every word that you spoke into my life and used it for good. I have slowly (some would tell me VERY quickly) but surely emerged from a lot of crappy darkness. I will never be the same but I will be better instead of worse.
I will tell you all, that I have learned so much about myself and about people. I have experienced and learned so much mercy and understanding. When I think of it all I kind of melt into a lump of thankfulness. I get filled with emotion at the realization that people (yeah, all of us) have the capacity to endure and grow more than even I ever imagined. And I saw that Love and Compassion for others is a major factor in my ability to endure such things that I have. I saw that my running is more of a picture of my life than I thought, and that it has taught me good lessons that will stick with me for a lifetime
A LITTLE MESSAGE TO YOU ALL
You know what guys, sometimes things just get hard don’t they. Sometimes they add up over time, and other times they rush in to overwhelm. I wanted to tell you that no matter what happens or has happened, just about anything is possible for you. Now is not the time to give up on what you want in life. Now is not the time to think of yourself as a throw away. Now is not the time to let others talk you out of your dreams. I know you can do what it is you want to do. Just take one step, just one. And in time, you will one day be where you want to be. And during those many steps you will fall down. This is ok. This is nothing to panic over. This is the normal human experience and it is highly desirable albeit not enjoyable. Because when we do fall, we learn how to stand once again.