Today while I was out for my 6 hour jaunt to train for my 24 hour race coming up in December, I had to chuckle to myself. One thing that I do now when I talk about my running is I usually only give the amount of time or the distance but not both. It automatically causes a person to judge me or themselves. Really it is all irrelevant. The important part is that YOU or ME is out there. That’s what counts. Anyway, so sometimes I will get passed by a “faster” runner, orrrrrrrrr……….I will pass a “slower” runner. I have learned over time is that things are not always as they appear. That fast person might be running a mile as fast as they can and I am on my 5th hour out there and feeling grumpy. Or, that person I pass might be getting past the longest they have ever gone and I am on my faster weekly run. My point is that it’s important to remember that everyone is in their own place on the fitness journey and us looking from the outside have no idea where that is.
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So yesterday I had a scare at work that basically through me (somewhat unknowingly) into myemotional eating persona. LOL. It was stressful that’s for sure and the minute somebody asked me if I wanted some fast food I hoped right on that band wagon without a thought. Then I felt guilty about it and ate a bunch of candy. All in all I ate 91 WW points for the day. It was a true blow up but I stopped it after the candy since I was actually pretty dang full of the yummy fatties. I wasn’t going to count any of those points but today I decided it is what it is and I should count it. I turned out that it was not such a horrible blow up after all. Sure I emotionally ate which I don’t like to get into when I can help it but even after counting all 91 points I still have 13 weekly points left. That was a huge relief and I could have enjoyed many more hours of “NON-GUILT” if I would have just counted it right away and known the truth. So it was a good lesson RELEARNED!!! If you blow it, just hold on, stop, and count the calories/points. It is usually not as bad as you think it is. It is the guilt that you let fester that kills you because you hop right back into that bad healthy cycle.
Today was a much better day for eating. I also ran. Yesterday I didn’t run because of the work emergency and the mass amount of food made me to full to run. But I was back at it today. It was a drizzling dark night tonight with heavy heavy fog. The run was tough, I ran faster than I normally do and I just wasn’t in to it. I didn’t enjoy it that much but sure was happy that I did it. Here are a couple of pics from the run.
I had a terrific week and a few days ago I wrote a lot about the confidence I had in running long distance training or race runs. As I ran my 6 mile run today I thought and thought and thought about this but I didn’t know I was until I finished. I said to myself mid-way that I should go for ten miles because I knew I could do it and it would increase my long run distance build-up faster. I held back though. I thought to myself that I am 100% sure that even right now I could push through and battle out a marathon finish. I mean heck, when there is so much on the line (a finishers shirt!!! 🙂 ) you always finish. I know I could. Would it be really fun? Would it be “relaxing” and benificial? Would it foster good thoughts or bad ones? Then it struck me about training for me personally. My body responds well to pretty much any kind of training I think. I recover well. I can go a long ass ways. But it REALLY struck my that a conservative build-up (like the one I did when I first started running) did more for creating an ATMOSPHERE OF CONFIDENCE within my own mind than it did for creating a super fit person. Of course the super fit goes along with the running but the multiple ultras and marathons, the way I explained to myself in my writing how I thought and felt going into a race, the sense of almost scoffing at a distance (with respect though) because I had done the work in the trenches far before hand. It struck me that the ATMOSPHERE OF CONFIDENCE in my own mind was what I need to foster more than anything. THAT is what creates IN ME the ability to stick with it, the ability to enjoy it, the ability to endure much longer distances. In other words, I held back. I cherished the “small” 6 mile victory. I saw in my minds eye the red line on my confidence meter bump up because I finished my 6 miles in complete comfort and with a sigh of satisfaction followed by a smile. There is plenty of time to build-up to 20, 30, 40 mile long runs. I was reminded of the times where I had a 30 mile long run and I felt this exact same way when I finished: in comfort and with a smile. Not sore for days, happy I did it, confident I could do it again.
It’s funny when I think of it, but bad eating doesn’t just happen when you are bummed out or pissed or some other negative emotion. It happens when you are happy as heck too. Food and eating it are closely connected to our emotions. We use it for birthdays, holidays, and celebrations of all types. We use it at funerals, work meetings, and vacations. It is all around us during all our feelings good and bad. It is possible to stay on your plan though during it all. Sometimes its hard, sometimes its not, but it is ALWAYS possible. Today I made it possible with some simple choices and the stuff I ate that was not optimal……………well…………..I just counted it. Ended the day with one point left actually and that is good news. LOL! Even on a day where I felt the whole range of emotions and had lots of opportunites to not count or just blow it all, I hung on. You can too.
I also got my run in tonight. It was a dry and cold night. I started the run just as the sun was setting so I took a pic through some awesome old oak trees. Check it out and thanks for stopping by to read.
I had a sucky day at work emotionally. Got pretty hurt, then offended, then it just turned to being pissed off. Still a bit pissed off really but my run helped a ton and then coming home to play some “Call of Duty” on the XBOX with the family cherred me up also.
So it was a victorious day really because as easy as I could have eaten emotionally I did not medicate in that fashion. I just tried to relax and laugh with the people at work that are more enjoyable. I went over my points a bit but it was nothing to worry about since I have my 49 extra points per week. I also gained 9 points running tonight so that helped. I had a great run. It was hard on the legs a bit but it was brisk and nice. Here are two pics from the run. It was neat because I took a pic of a group of cattle and when they saw me they all run up to the fence to get close because they were curious.
I plan to be taking more pics of my runs. I got a new camera for Christmas and want to put it to good use for the blog. I am sure some will be good and some not so good. At the moment I am doing walking, walk/jog’s, personal training three times a week, and of course building up my long run. I feel pretty bad about not being able to run as long as I used to but I am not going to let that stop me. I ran 18 miles six weeks ago but went on vacation to hawaii and did not exercise at all. So 18 miles is out of the picture for now and I don’t really care much. I am just going to start slow and move forward in small steps just like I did when I could only run one mile. I will keep the blog updated on my running and especially with any marathons I do. I have done about 26 or so marathons. I plan to get to 30 in 2011. Here are the pics from tonights run. It was a cold and rainy time with flooded streets. It was exhilarating really. Went out for 30 minutes and burned around 290 calories.
I have given a lot thought to the marathon or longer races that I have been doing lately. I enjoy the races very much and they give me a sense of satisfaction or accomplishment. I feel good knowing I can run 26 miles with no problem, or finish a 50 mile race, or head down to Tennessee for my favorite Strolling Jim 40 Miler. I have finished 26 races of marthon distance or longer but I have been asking myself why lately. You see, I don’t want these races to be my “identity” or self-worth measuring stick. I have been thinking that if these long races are creeping into the arena of meaning THAT, then I need to back off of them so that I can regain a healthier sense of who I am and what is most important to me. I don’t want to get to a place where I think I am not in shape because I don’t want to or can’t run a 50 miler anytime I want to. I don’t want to be thinking, “man, I only did 1 marathon this year I’m must not be a real runner.” I am not there yet but I know myself and my tendency to do this so I have had to put myself into check regarding this. So I have been considering drastically cutting back on these races so that I can begin to focus on more objective measures of success that define my fitness and my goals more accurately. I am not looking to be one of the best marthoners or ultra-marathoners, I am looking to be in very very good condition as a runner who still enjoys running for the rest of my life. Anyway, these are just the thoughts I have been having regarding this.
My eating went very well yesterday again. I went to Taco Del Mar for dinner but had the calories and points to be able to do it within my plan. It was very tasty too. It’s friday and I don’t work tomorrow so I am finishing off my lunches today. I feel pretty darn good physically and have lots of energy. I will also run today, I think it is a marathon goal paced run for 5-6 miles. I am just going to focus on enjoying that run for running’s sake. Just be outside and enjoy the sensation of movement and experience the blessing of being able to run at all. That’s all for today.