So after my super long training weekend a week and a few days ago, I found my knee hurting in a way that was not normal. This is how it goes with doing these long runs and that is why listening to your body and being observant is so important while training and racing. This week I have tried to run a few times only to find that my knee still hurt within the first 100 yards or so and this COULD be very discouraging. In fact, this close to a race it could be down right devastating to some. For me though, not so much. Why you ask???????? Here is why:
RUNNING IS NOT MY IDENTITY! I love running, I love what running does for my body and mind, I love what I learn about life from running…………………but running is not the only thing. I have been where running and what it does for me was my identity but not anymore. There is a lot to life and it is pretty normal to feel that without that “one thing” that you love that you would not be who you are. For some it is that significant other, or a job, or drugs, or whatever……and the thought of losing any of those “one things” brings up fear in most to the point that they will cling to the thing to their own detriment.
Running is a vehicle for many things. It adds enjoyment and vigor to my life. If I couldn’t run anymore I don’t want to be in a spot where I can’t enjoy life or live with vigor. I mean do you wan to lose your vigor or enjoyment of life because only one aspect is not working out in it????? I doubt it, but this may have not ever crossed your mind. It’s great to have focus but you also have to have the ability to adjust to life to keep it invigorating and lively.
So despite this set back, I know that I am ok and that my body will be ok and that I can accomplish all that I want in life even if I can’t run. I am not at the place where I can’t run anymore and hope I never get there, but for now I need to back off a bit to heal up and I am happy as ever!
Try not to see your life as a prison just because you can’t do a particular thing!